In memory of Megan, her school (Coronado Elementry) sent a memorial rose bush from a grower in California. These are the first blooms - taken May 7, 2009.
Even in this very tragic and sad time, Megan once again saw the silver lining as she was able to help save the lives of three special people with the gift of organ donation.
Well, it's been just over four months since Megan passed...and it just doesn't seem to be getting any easier. In fact, it's getting harder.
We had a speacial memories box made in honor and memory of Megan where we could safely store some of her items that we kept. Alisha and I placed the items in the box the other day, and all the pain and heartache flooded back in. Ever since then, my mood and general outlook have been pretty gloomy. I am trying really hard to be strong, but find myself in tears at the oddest of moments. Just before I started writing this I heard a commercial on the radio that reminded me of Megan...and out came the tears.
It has really been difficult to be strong and positive around my other two wonderful children; I feel so sad that they will not have their big sister around as they grow up.
I reallly miss Megan. I want her back. I want to hold her. I want to tell her again that I love her. I want her know how much she meant and means to everyone she every touched. I want to see her hold her Tinky doll. I want to hear sing with her favorite songs. I want to see her beautiful smile.
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